The sun is shining, for a moment in time, the shadows are gone and all is well with the world. I am feeling fantastic, I have no pain, and the Awen is thrumming gently close by. I have just been speaking to the man who is sharing my hospital room. He is an old Vermonter and speaks with an accent that is very similar to the country people in the southwest of England. He is in a lot of pain and quite lonely. His aura is gray and I feel that he doesn’t have much time left on this planet. He gurgles when he breathes, and cannot walk. He has a great sense of humor and I challenge myself to overcome my shyness and inertia to speak with him regularly and make him laugh.
I cannot help but compare his energy with mine. Now, there is no comparison and I feel ready to run up Camels Hump. A few days ago, however, you would not have been able to tell the difference between his life force and mine. I made my peace with the world and was ready to go. A lot has happened in these few days and, for this time, I have returned and am raring to go!
This last episode was my wake-up call. My body will not survive much longer if I treat it the way I usually do. I realize I want to live and I have a lot more to do so I am making changes. I am excited to get fit and healthy, and get on with life.
As with all my bouts with illness, essential factors in my recovery have been the strength of my spirit and sense of humor. These two forces are a direct result of all the prayers and healing thoughts beamed to me by you, from friends both in the USA and the U.K. This especially applies to Fearn, who for some outrageous circumstances has chosen/was chosen to share her life with me this time around. Her love and support has been unflagging. You, my friends and community, have not forgotten me, and you have taken the time, and have cared enough, to have actively focused your awesome healing and loving energies towards me. You have made a real difference.
As a child, I started this life in a lonely, sad place. I never felt at home and was always looking for my ‘real’ parents. I never resonated with the name they gave me (Iain) and always wondered what my real name was. I had no human friends and didn’t know how to make them. My only friend and comfort was nature. We lived in the countryside and I pretty much lived outdoors with the trees, flowers and sunshine.
I recognize the transformation in my life… with astonishment. I realize I now live in a loving, healing and magical community that is active and alive. I acknowledge that I belong, and that I both give and take in this awesome organism. We all do. It works, and we are all so much stronger and whole as a consequence. We rock! We look after each other’s backs when things go wrong. This is true abundance and a dream come true. We are making it happen in the physical.
I thank all of you for loving, and caring for me. Thank you for spending some of your precious time sending me your prayers and healing energy. I thank all of you who were able to visit, bringing gifts of reiki, crystals, freshly juiced veggie juice, squishy sand, acupuncture and dollops of love.
The Maya have a wonderful attitude to community. They say as a greeting: “In lak’esh”, which means “I am another you”. In other words, we may have separate bodies, but in truth, and heart, we are One. I feel that a healthy loving community manifests this truth, and that we are on our way to manifesting this awesome spiritual reality on Earth. And I feel so blessed.
I offer you the following blessing in gratitude and wonder…
by John O’Donohue
Awaken to the mystery of being here
and enter the quiet immensity of your own presence.
Have joy and peace in the temple of your senses.
Receive encouragement when new frontiers beckon.
Respond to the call of your gift and the courage to
follow its path.
Let the flame of anger free you of all falsity.
May warmth of heart keep your presence aflame.
May anxiety never linger about you.
May your outer dignity mirror an inner dignity of
Take time to celebrate the quiet miracles that seek
Be consoled in the secret symmetry of your soul.
May you experience each day as a sacred gift woven
around the heart of wonder.